::Luahan Hati::

erm, mengapakah begitu susah untuk aku melupakan kau.... jiwa aku sudah cukup terseksa menanggung segala bebanan rasa ini... aku sudah tidak sanggup lg.... apa yg harus aku buat untuk melupakan kau??? mahu sahaja aku menjerit sekuat hati untuk meluahkan rasa ini.... tp adakah org yg sudi mendengar luahan hatiku ini..... hurrmmm, ada juga kawan2 aku memberi pendapat mereka supaya aku melupakan kau... iyaa sudah puas aku mencuba setiap kali aku hampir boleh melupakan kau, pasti kau akan muncul kembali di dalam hidupku.... bukan setakat itu, aku juga cuba untuk mencari pengganti diri kau dan yerr aku jumpa tetapi orang itu juga sama seperti kau..dye hanya mau main2 kan hatiku sahaja.... dye juga buat aku kecewa sama seperti kau mengecewakan aku.... dye hanya mempermainkan hati dan perasaan aku.....huh aku merasakan sungguh sedih tatkala ini..... aku merasakan mahu menangis sepuas-puasnya... tp apa yg aku dapat sekiranya aku menangis??? hanya kesakitan yg aku dapat..... aku tetap xdapat kau dan aku juga xdapat dye... arrgghhh mengapakah susah sungguh untuk aku mengecapi sedikit bahagia??? mengapa.....???.... tetapi aku sedar akan ketentuan NYA yg Maha Esa.... mungkin ini adalah ujian yg harus aku hadapi..... Ya ALLAH tabahkan lah hati hambaMu ini.....sesungguhnya aku redha dengan ketentuan Mu Ya ALLAH......

~sedih hatiku~

::Happiness::

heeeyyyyy i'm back....hurmm, i ada byk story niyh...hehe...

1st story

last week i blq perlis coz ada perjumpaan ngan lecturer kn seperti yg i cter sblum ni....erm,tp yg i nk cter skrg ni apa yg i bt mase blq perlis ritu...erm,i pergi karaoke kt "K BOX"...heee puas ati tau sb i rndu nk p karok sbnrnye nk2 lg kt "K BOX"....then lps p karok my frenz n i p pasar malam Arau....hehe kt situ i beli "lockchin"...ermmm lps hajat ke2 i yg i nk bt kn....hehee..ye la kalo kt kuantan mana la i nk jmpe "lockchin"...hurmm,pd mlm nye plak we all p tgk wayang kt JTM cter "the mechanic"...best la jgk cter tuu....huhuhu.....tu la saje ape yg i bt mase kt perlis....hehee....yg xbley blaa i xjmpe pon lecturer sbnye i da tau apa yg lecturer nk srh bt...hahaa...naseb baek ada cik Mia n cik Yana...thanks yea sb tlg informkn kt ktorg...oohhh xlupe jg kpd en Eman...hahaa..kalo x xsempat la i nk p karok tu....

pada keesokan arinye i ikot cik Nadia blq Penang di sertai cik Nown, cik Xana n en Eman...hurmmm...bermulalah kisah i menghabiskan duit....hehehe....kalo ikotkan i ni susah sikit tau dlm bab2 shopping ni besenye i berapa nk layan tp on that day i telah ke "Perangin Mall" tuk menghabiskan duit....hahahha...ermm,pape pon i rse sgt bahagia tau sb da lama i xkuar jejalan n shopping ngan my frenz....eyh lupe plak sblum ke "PM" i ke "Chowrasta" dlu tuk membeli jeruk yg my dad pesan srh beli jeruk salak n buah pala...huhu..pe lg we all borong jeruk la plak kn....huhuu...erm,pd mlm nye i pon bertolak blq kuantan bus kul 10 mlm....uuuhhh penat gler rsenyee.....tp im happy....xsabar rsenye nk p sana lg....

2nd story

setibanyee i d'kuantan kul 6.30 pg... my dad amek kt terminal.....hurrmmm blq umah berehat....pd ptg nye pula i kuar ngan my dearest best frenz cik Iryani n her BF en Art....we all p lepak kt "Restoran Taj kt IM".... after that we all lepak kt "Taman permainan IM 5"...hehe...tetibe cam dak kecik main jongkang jongket n buaian...hehehe....erm,thanks ye en Art sb sudi tolong amek n antar i ke umah.....huhu....nnt kite lepak sesama lagi eh...

3rd story

ok skrg ni the last story...hehee...cternye i skrg ni rajin la jgk join YM chat room ni, tp kan bergantung kpd mood la jgk kaloi rse nk join i join....huhuu...tp pada isnin lalu i join la....erm,besenye tau2 je la kalo join chat room ni mcm2 org la kite jmpekn...ada yg ok n ada yg xok.....tp besenye kalo org yg dah sebuk2 nk chat mende2 xsenonoh ni besenye i xlayan....ok skrg ni i nk cter i ada la kenal sorang mamat ni...tp i suke chat ngan dye sb dye ni suke cari 'pasal' ngan i...so bile chat tu xda la rse boring sgt....hehhee...hurmm, mamat ni bt i rse bahagia la....i xtau nape tp i memang rse bahagia bile chat ngan dye....ermm,lg 1 dye ni chat xda la nk chat mende2 yg merepek2...we all just cter hal semasa.....huhu...hampir hari2 la i chat ngan dye ni start dr ari isnin aritu....bkn senang i nk maintain chat ngan org yg sama selain dr kwn2 i...lg pulak i xkenal dye ni...tp i rse sgt selesa bile chat ngan dye.....dannnn...skrg ni i rse nk sgt jmpe dye....tp itu semua hanya ketentuan Allah (jodoh & pertemuan)...tp xsalahkn kalo i hope i dpt jmpe dye ni....hehe..sekadar hope...huhuhu.....lg yg i suke pasal dye ni coz dye tepati janji dye...kalo i ajak dye on9 dye akn on9 pd waktu yg d'janjikn.....selain itu dye ni bile chat ngan dye rse la cam chat ngan org yg educated ckit sb byk la mende yg dye tau (berpengetahuan)....huhuu....ermm,i hope rse bahagia ini akan berkekalan....i hope jgk yg i ngan dye ni bley jd kwn baek....hehehe....

ermmm.....k la...sampai d'sini saja la yg i story k.....nnt ada masa i sambung lg.....heeee....cha alif wau......

::Long Journey::

hellllloooo!!!erm,sudah lama i xmenulis blog ni al maklumlah i bz ckit lately ni (kononnye la)..hehehe...erm,mlm ni i akn berjalan jauh...d'harapnye selamat sampai & selamat pulang lah....InsyaAllah...erm,xsabar rasenye i nk bertemu my lovely frenz d'arau....ohh yerr sedap bercerita nk jln jauh tp destinasinye lupe hndk d'bgtau...i nk blq perlis la mlm ni....esk i ada perjumpaan with lecturer.....berbalik semule i xsabar dah ni nk jmpe kwn2 i......rindu la kt depa semua...hihihihii....erm,i pon rndu nk p karaoke d'kbox, nk mkn lock chin......erm,rndu nk tgk permandangan d'kola perlisss.....hrrmmmmi akn stay d'perlis sampai sabtu ni jerr kejap jerr....hehehe....ari ahad i akn berada semula d'kuantan....ye la ari isnin kn keje......huhuhuhu.....adooiii i xda idea dah ni nk tulis pe.....xpe la nnt biler i ada idea i tulis lg k.....doakan la semoga perjalanan i ni selamat...amin!!!.....k la.....seee yaaaa....mmmuaahhhh....=)

::Friend Forever::

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June 
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

(song by Vitamin C)

erm,arini i'm happy coz i dpt jmpe ngan my best frenz....almost 1 year i xjmpe dye....skrg ni ssh btul i nk jmpe my old frenz...ye la semua da ada kehidupan masing2....rndu la nk jmpe dyorg semua....nk bt reunion x berkesempatan lg...erm,berbalik pd my best frenz ni akhirnya dpt jg i jmpe dye...1jam lebeyh jgk la dye lepak kt umah i sblom dye gerak ke KL...anyway thanks frenz coz u make me happy today....i harap kite akan jd best frenz forever...hrmmm cter2 ni u all xnk tau ke my best frenz ni boy or girl???erm,jwpannye my best frenz ni boy kirenye my best boy frenz la...i ngan dye kwn since 2004 lg...hehehe..mule2 i takot nk kwn ngan dye sb i ingat dye ni garang sb muka seyes jerk...tp dye ni nmpak je cam garang tp sgt baek n romantik tau...i tau la sb i kwn dye....ermmm,dye da ada gf n dye ni seorg yg setia....if dye da cintakn org tu dye akn syg n take care btul2...my frenz ni seorg a good listener..if i ada masalah i akn cter kt dye n mintak pendapat dye...dye akan selalu membantu if i dlm kesusahan thats y i sgt syg kt my frenz ni....selain dr my best boy frenz, i ada jg lg my best girl frenz...my best girl frenz pown sama cam my best boy frenz n we all frenz...my best girl frenz ni i kwn since 2002...i love them...ermmm,selain tu i ada ramai lg kwn2 n i syg semua kwn2 i....x lupe jg kpd kwn2 i semasa i di university x kire la sama ada roomate i or ouzmate i...i love u all....tetibe i rindu la masa2 di rumah sewa...byk kenangan semasa duk umah sewa bersama teman2 sekuliyah....anyway i love all my frenz.......i really....really...really...love...leve...love....u all...frenz.....mmmuahhhh....:)

(i harap kita semua dpt berkumpul kembali bersama2...)....miss u all.... 

title change....

hollaaa...erm,arini i change my blog title from LOVE FOREVER to :: I MY ME MINE ::.....why i change???bcoz i rse blog ni byk cter pasal diri i so i change la kpd :: I MY ME MINE ::.... erm,skrg ni da start musim bz i tuk menyiapkan my thesis....huhuhu...bler pikir2 pasal thesis ni bt i rase takot la...tp mcm mana pon i must be strong tuk hadapi semuanye....kalo i x strong cmne i nk capai semua cita2 i kn....erm, k la nnt ada masa i update lg my blog...i nk chaw dlu....bubye...love yaaa.......;)

::i have no idea::

hohohoho......beberapa hari ni i xda idea la nk update i pnyer blog ni....hmmm....lgpon i bz ckit...hehehe...kononnye la....erm,smlm i bt puding....1st trial....hahaha...before ni i xpenah lg bt puding....naseb baek jd....hehhe..actually i bt puding tuk raikan bezday akak kt opis i tu...hrmmm ye la skrg ni i tgh bt practical....i rse happy bler tgk org mkn apa yg i masak....erm,tuk arini plak i masak sizling noodles tuk my family...huhuhuhu...erm,cter pasal sizling noodles ni i teringat la plak kt i pnyer best frenz, coz dye la yg bg resepi sizling noodles kt i.......lama gler i xjmpe dye....rindu laaa.....hrrmmm...i harap sgt i dpt jmpe dye esk.....jangan berhenti berharap...hahahhaa....erm,k la....i nk tdo da....nyte.....=)